An open letter for my 13-year old self.
Ten years from now, you will be 23. You will wonder how it feels like to be like 23. Let me tell you that you made it somehow but it wasn’t the way you dreamt it to be. It was a tough road full of pit holes that almost made you think to stop your journey.
You said to yourself and even to some of your friends that you’re already settled; you are happily married with four kids; you have a house and lot and a car; you are already a published writer and a restaurant owner.
Kid, as much as I hate to be the bearer of the bad news, nothing happened. Those childish fantasies of yours are still not yet happening. And they changed over the course of your life. You do not want to get married at all; if given a chance, you only want to have a son but still hesitant of it; you still don’t have your own house and lot and car but so far you’re renting an apartment; you’ve written too many but none was published. Don’t you realize, life doesn’t go that way?
But I am not saying that within ten years nothing happened in your life. You finished your bachelor’s degree with flying colors somehow. And that’s great news, right? Since not everybody was given the beautiful chance to finish their studies. You are working in a huge company you’ve never heard about before. And somehow, you’re having a career. Isn’t it beautiful?
However, kid, you must brace yourself. You must strengthen your heart. You must guard your emotions. You must keep your confidence with you. You are not the only human being walking in this earth. You are only a speck of dust who shares this earth with billion people. It isn’t easy, I assure you. Believe me if I tell you that it isn’t easy. You will meet tons of people who will play significant and vital roles in your life. They will mock, judge, degrade and push you to your limits. Prejudices will always be thrown at you most especially when you keep on shining. They are just bunch of insecure and bull shit people who keep on exploiting your weakness since they believe that it will ruin you. But they got it all wrong. Since your weakness is your biggest strength. Keep that in mind. But don’t blame them or anything. People are people. They may be narrow-minded and immature. It is human nature to act that way.
Hey, don’t be a chicken just simply because of those stupid people. Don’t you worry, not people are bad; not people are like them. There’s still good people out there. And you are so blessed. Believe me. You truly are. You may not realize it but sooner or later, you will be struck with the realization that you must be thoroughly grateful with our creator for giving you those kinds of persons. Treat them as gem, will you? Your family is your biggest source of inspiration. You may not get along well but sooner or later everything will change and you will love that change. Your crazy cousins are still there! Believe me, they are the best cousins in the world. The closeness you built during your childhood remained intact. And your friends, kid, you have the best bunch of friends. They are priceless like your family. You never actually thought that those people are going to be your friends ten years after. And you are so blessed to have a best friend, who understands you from head to toe; who doesn’t need any detailed narration to understand the messy and complex your situations are. You treasure her so much. And you won’t believe that she’s going to be your best friend. You hate her so much before. And you promise to one another that you will be best friends until your last breath. Friendship is magical believe me. She will stay by your side during the darkest times of your life. And she still will. But one of the saddest things about friendship is some friendship are not meant to last. Some friends are temporary. People really come and go but you have to deal with it even it hurts.
You do not usually fall in love but when you do, you terribly fall hard to the extend that you no longer know how to love yourself. And that’s why I keep on telling you that you should guard your emotions. You always allow your feelings to control you. You always let your sensations to drown you. It isn’t good, don’t you realize? They consume you. They devour you. And that isn’t a good thing.
And as young as you are, can you please stop over thinking? Don’t you dare allow frustrations get in your head? You’re still young. There’s so much about life that you just don’t see since you keep on focusing at the bigger picture. But as soon as you closely look at your life, you will realize that you have too much than you actually need.
Do remember to stay healthy since it is a must. Your health will be in pretty bad shape ten years after. And you just have to accept your fate. That’s how life goes. But before that happens, you have to enjoy your life to the full(est). You only have one life and treasure it, alright?